| Acknowledgments | |
| 1 | Introduction | 3 |
| 2 | Routines of Emancipation: Alternative Cinema in the Ideology and Politics of the Sixties | 17 |
| 3 | The Old Days | 49 |
| 4 | Jonas Mekas: A European Critic in America | 51 |
| 5 | "Loved Him, Hated It": An Interview with Andrew Sarris | 62 |
| 6 | The Apron Strings of Jonas Mekas | 83 |
| 7 | How I Think I Made Some of My Films | 97 |
| 8 | The Forest and The Trees | 100 |
| 9 | Notes on Displacement: The Poems and Diary Films of Jonas Mekas | 121 |
| 10 | During the Second Half of the Sixties | 138 |
| 11 | Film Diary/Diary Film: Practice and Product in Walden | 145 |
| 12 | A Portfolio of Photographs | 180 |
| 13 | Reminiscences, Subjectivities, and Truths | 193 |
| 14 | My Contacts with Jonas Mekas | 213 |
| 15 | Lost, Lost, Lost: Mekas as Essayist | 215 |
| 16 | Dear Friends | 240 |
| 17 | Film Writing and the Figure of Death: He Stands in a Desert Counting the Seconds of His Life | 241 |
| 18 | A Tale of Two Co-ops | 255 |
| 19 | Jonas Mekas | 266 |
| 20 | Wearing the Critic's Hat: History, Critical Discourses, and the American Avant-Garde Cinema | 268 |
| 21 | Who Is Afraid of Jonas Mekas? | 284 |
| 22 | Video at Anthology | 286 |
| 23 | I Feel Passionate about the Film Journals of Jonas Mekas | 293 |
| 24 | Home Movies of the Avant-Garde: Jonas Mekas and the New York Art World | 294 |
| Appendices | 313 |
| A | Autobiographical Notes | 315 |
| B | Filmography | 321 |
| C | Showcases I Ran in the Sixties | 323 |
| B | Books Published | 325 |
| Index | 327 |
